Chapter 18

Shallow Cell

 

            None of them knew about it.  It was going to be somewhat of a secret, really, a surprise.  Although, if Tetsuya ever found out about the sessions Kataki had been secretively going to after class each day, he would probably yank him from the sessions and say that this was his fate that he must endure.  If there was a way to regain near complete motion of his right arm and leg, then he wanted to take it, even at the expense of another hissy fit from his father.  He thought it would be well worth it.

            And so after several weeks of physical therapy, still no one in his family nor anyone at school had any idea that he had been seeing a specialist.  Even when he stopped walking with the support of his crutch did anyone say a word to him about it.  Maybe they simply didn’t notice the subtle change, or maybe no one cared.  Either way, he didn’t care, but he thought at least his sister would say something.  Every day he’d limp his way home and wonder if his parents or his sister would say anything, but they never did.  It went on like this for weeks until he simply gave up.  He didn’t care if they’d ever notice the progress of the physical therapy funded completely on the insurance from the fall years ago.  If no one knew about it or even cared, then his complete recovery meant all the more to him and him alone.

            It had been a while since all six of them had seen each other together, within their own little group.  Kataki at the head, Streeten and Gaiger as his arms, Nanami as his eyes, Bran as his strength, and Frenier as his heart.  They had all been friends since childhood, possibly even before kindergarten.  Throughout the years, they have all had their different views on the world, however, they all felt the same way about it:  The world was a place of needless suffering, and in order to survive, you must constantly look out for number one.  Kataki, for example, strained under the eye of his father, Tetsuya, who never seemed to be pleased with Kataki’s performance in sports even though he was the captain of several sporting teams.  He had such potential in the line of sports, that after the accident at Sakuba, he felt as if he had no life left at all.  And that made Tetsuya’s stares and ridicule even harder to bear.  Perhaps that is why Kataki formed this group of friends, a group that would do whatever necessary to help another member.  They were a family apart from their own.

            It was an exceptionally warm fall evening, the sun had set beneath the great rise and fall of the nearby mountain hills that set upon the land like a resting bear with a blanket of mist about its feet.  This world truly was a beautiful place, in some cases.  Nature lived beyond the dirt and grime of the city, somewhere out there just out of the reach of humankind.  Nature always seemed to be left behind in second or maybe even last place, far behind convenience and so many other human needs and wants.  Perhaps that is why a thick cover of smog covered the city for hundreds of years past, up until recently.  Now, the sky was like a dirty chalkboard washed clean with a brand new sponge socked full of warm water.  The stars had just begun to show against the black velvet sky as a passing plane blinked its way across the horizon.  Various kinds of trees had been losing their leaves for a few days, which now littered the ground in every place imaginable.  If only the cycle of human life could be as easy.  To live, to bloom, to fall, and start all over again in the spring.

            Stepping underneath a large oak tree, Kataki shuffled loudly through a pile of brown and orange leaves and stood angrily against the rough bark of the tree.  The other five slowly followed their leader and waited to hear what he had to say.  Kataki’s first words were directed to Streeten and Gaiger.

            “I assume that you have not carried out my wish as of late, have you?” he said, his eyelids hanging low over his dark eyes.

            Gaiger swallowed hard while hitting his brother in the ribs with his elbow.  “Uhh,” Streeten stumbled upon his words.  “Actually no, but...”

            “Fine.  I’m not going to ask you why you have failed me, but I suppose this was too great of a task for you to accomplish on your own.” Kataki replied, closing his eyes tiredly.  “I will have to think of another way to get rid of him...”

            Beside Bran, Frenier stood with a very concerned look growing on his face.  He was torn between his loyalty to Kataki and his friendship with the one Kataki hated the most, Hisoka.  He didn’t want to serve as another thorn in Kataki’s side, but he had to know exactly what he intended to do.  Standing forward, he pushed a wild strand of his hair out of his face that the wind seemed adamant in blowing in his eyes.  “You really weren’t going to let Streeten and Gaiger kill him, were you?  I mean, that’s not what we’re here for.  We’re not killers.”

            This was exactly what Kataki didn’t want to hear.  He opened his eyes to glare Frenier down, and spoke harshly, “That kid has no right to live when he stole mine from me.”

            “What?  Are you talking about the Sakuba accident?” Frenier asked, his eyes straining for an answer.  “That was just an accident!”

            “But you weren’t there, were you?”  The anger in Kataki’s voice was beginning to boil up through his neck and up into his temples, turning his whole face red.  “You didn’t see what I saw.  You didn’t hear what I heard.  And you certainly did not go through what I went through!  No one can understand what I have been through in these past five years, so don’t even bother trying to take me apart to analyze the broken pieces because you will never understand.”

            Feeling as though he stepped out of line, Frenier stepped back into the shadows and kept quiet.  An uncomfortable silence fell among the friends until Bran stepped forward to cure the silence.  He still had several white bandages all over his face from the burns caused by Hisoka’s fiery hands back during the fountain incident.  Scratching at one, Bran grinned and said, “Either way, nothing will break us apart.”

            Slightly behind Bran, Nanami stood twirling her yellow hair in her hand and grinned, “How sentimental.”

            “But it’s true, isn’t it?” Gaiger spoke up enthusiastically then immediately poked his brother to agree.

            “Uuh, right, right.”

            Maybe he could trust Bran’s words and that all six of them would forever remain the best of friends.  Up until now, Kataki never fully understood or even saw the close bonds that they all shared.  How could he have missed such an obvious thing?  Maybe he was far to obsessed with the downfall of Hisoka that he couldn’t see anything positive in his frail life.  There was nothing in his pitiful existence that gave him any sort of comfort and he hardly knew what a “good feeling” was, except for one thing: revenge.  It had grown on him, first seeming darkly vindictive and then boldly beautiful over the years.  It gave him a sense of reconciliation, a way to expel whatever black feelings he had been carrying along with him.  Some would say that Kataki’s stand point on whether or not revenge was such a good idea was something only a demon would say- and he enjoyed it.  He enjoyed wrecking havoc in other people’s lives, people that he hated, and yet, he hated what other people thought of him because of such a stand point, people like his sister.  She was hardly one to hold a grudge against someone let alone seek revenge.  She constantly looked down on him for feeling the way he did, but how could he change such a piece of his own existence?  How could he change the way he felt?  It was impossible, therefore, he would never change.  Change was not an option.

            “I think I’d have to agree with Nanami,” Kataki said at last.  “But in any case, I don’t want you two,” he said nodding toward the twins, “following after Hisoka anymore.  And you,” he shot his cold eyes toward Frenier, “I don’t want you becoming such good buddies with him, either.  He is our number one enemy, the one who ruined my life, and he will be punished.”

            Frenier rolled his eyes.  How many more times were they to listen to this child-like talk of revenge?  It had become old rather fast, and Frenier was tired of having to listen to it over and over again.  “Why do you have to blame Hisoka for everything that has ever gone wrong in your life?  Just because you keep babbling on and on about it makes me wonder what really happened up on Sakuba, whether it was Hisoka that let you fall, or if you let yourself fall just so you could place the blame on someone other than yourself for once.”

            That was it.  Frenier had been walking on thin ice with his last comment- and Kataki had had enough.  Slowly limping toward the kid with green hair, Kataki, staring down at his feet, took what looked like a shiny, silver pen from his pocket and slashed it across Frenier’s left cheek, leaving a trail of red oozing down the side of his face.  Frenier stepped back, placing a hand to his face as a small stream of blood dripped between his fingertips.  He knew he had stepped out of line, and this was his punishment; but still, he felt that he had to say something about Kataki’s recent behavior and obsession over Hisoka.  It wasn’t healthy-and it wasn’t that Frenier was siding with Hisoka, either.  He was still adamantly concerned for Kataki’s mental stability.  That is why he spoke up and that is why he silently endured Kataki’s angry rebuttal. 

            Wiping the side of the silver instrument off with a white tissue and placing it out of sight, Kataki chucked the tissue with a smudge of red on it at Frenier and scowled.  “Now you know the line by which you mustn’t cross.”

            The other four members of Kataki’s small group of friends, seemingly shocked by his sudden movements, stood quietly aside, some comfortable and uncomfortable with the awkward silence that followed.  Finally when Kataki turned away from Frenier and walked up to the tree to once again lean on, he looked to everyone with his dark, staring eyes, and said with a deep voice, “All of you must be aware of this line.  If we are to be “friends,” then this one, simple rule must not be forgotten, bent, or broken, is that clear?”  The five of them quietly, nervously nodded their heads in answer.  “Fine.  Now, to get back down to business, you all must know that my sister has taken somewhat of a liking to Hisoka, even though they have not seen much of each other.”

            “Then how do you know this to be true?” Nanami asked, still twiddling a strand of her hair.

            “Because I have seen it.  I have seen her eyes when she looks at him, and I have heard it in her voice when she talks about him.  I know.  I have known her since the moment she was born- and this too does not escape me.  The only problem let is what we do about this.  We could just let it go for a while and see if anything truly becomes of my assumptions, or we could stop it before anything has a chance to progress at all.”

            With a slight grin twisting across his face, Streeten asked, “And how do you suppose we go about doing that?”

            “We could kill him,” Gaiger added.

            Looking off to the desolate, vacant streets surrounding them, Kataki sighed, suddenly feeling the sense of peace that would come only after Hisoka’s death.  But that time was still far off into the future…and he still had much to prepare for it.  Regaining his focus, he turned back to the group.  “That will not do.  Not yet.  There must have been a reason, a cosmic answer, as to why you were not able to complete the task that I had given to you before.  I know it wasn’t because of your inability, because you have proven yourselves far too many times to make me think negatively on your ability, however, there still must be a reason for it.”

            “You mean, something like a divine mandate or something?” Frenier asked, holding the tissue against the cut on his face.

            “Yes, perhaps.  Why, after so many near fatal accidents and obstacles, does he always seem to rebound without so much of a scar left over, physical or mental?  There must be a reason…”

            How interesting this topic was, Kataki thought.  Just the idea that something other than human overshadowed his archrival, protecting him from harm.  What if this were true?  Would anyone be able to bump him off then, if the gods were protecting him?  There must be a way to override these powerful beings of protection, some way to curse their powers of protection just long enough so that he could wrench the kid’s heart from his chest.  There must be a way- and he knew exactly who could help him figure this all out.

            His eyes suddenly opening wide, Kataki looked up to his friends again, and said most peculiarly, “Never mind all that.  I… I think I just might be tired, and I’m rambling.  I think we should end things here and continue on at a later date, alright?”

            “Yeah,” Bran was the first to speak up, “okay, Kataki.  Whatever you say, man.”

            “See everybody in school next week,” Gaiger said, running off into the darkness with is brother slowly following behind.

            Bran and Nanami were the next to leave, both waving their goodbyes as they stepped off into the dark night.  Then as Kataki turned away and began to limp off down the road, Frenier noticed something about him, something that he thought no one else seemed to have brought up.  “Kataki, you’re walking without your crutch now.  This is great!  When did this happen?”

            Without turning to look at the boy, Kataki said, “A few weeks ago.  Actually, you’re the first person to even say something about it.  I was beginning to wonder if anyone was ever going to notice.”

            “Have you been seeing a doctor or something?  Progress like this just doesn’t happen over night.”

            “Yeah, but my parents don’t know about it.  You know how my father is- so bent on destiny and crap.  That’s why he never let me go to a specialist, because he thought it was my fate to have a messed up leg and arm for the rest of my life.”

            “That’s terrible.”

            “Yeah, it is…  But that doesn’t matter any more.  I’m getting help on my own, without my parent’s or any one else’s help.”  He turned and shot his dark eyes toward Frenier.  “But you cannot mention this to anyone, alright?  If you do, my father is sure to hear about it and make me stop going… which I won’t do even if he tells me to stop.  It’s just a precaution to possibly avoid any unwanted fits of rage from my father.”

            Frenier shook his head.  “You’ve got nothing to worry about from me, Kataki.  I’m not going to say a word.  I’m just glad you’re finally getting better, after all these years.”

            Yes, after all these years, he was finally seeing his future lighting up before his eyes, when before nothing but a black blob existed in its place.  If only his parents never found out about his frequent visits to the physical therapist, everything would be okay.  Nodding, Kataki agreed intently with Frenier for the first time in the entire evening, and said, “Yes, it has been far too long…”

 

 

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            Kaori, alone in a swirl of black nothingness, stumbled on hands and knees along what felt like an open field.  Every now and then a sharp picker from a weed or piece of random debris sparked pain up her hand as she crawled onward.  She had been lost in this world for what seemed to be hours, and still she could not find a source of light anywhere to see by.  For all she knew, she was wandering on and on toward nothing at all.  There were no sounds of people or animals out in the woods with her; the only thing she could hear were her own pants and sighs of despair and the crumpling of weeds underneath her hands and feet.  Then when she thought she could go no further, the area around her suddenly grew a bit lighter, not much, but just enough for her to stand once again to her feet and get the first glimpse of where she was.

            She was right from her assumption before.  She was in the middle of a strange wooded area, an open prairie, really.  Off in the distance just a bit, she could see rows and rows of gigantic trees that stood like tall, shadowy figures.  Turning away from the forest, she glanced in the other direction, looking up to the sky.  It was full of dark, bulky clouds as if a storm was about to rip through the area.  A tiny flicker of light poked through the clouds and gleamed brightly on the water below, a lake.  Thankful for finding something to cure her dry mouth and throat, she ran to the edge of the lake, almost doing a complete swan dive into the water as she pounced at the water.  After she drank a good portion of the lake, she sat her back on the soft beach and sighed.  She didn’t know where she was or why, but she was at least thankful to be in somewhat peaceful surroundings.

            Closing her eyes to the black wind blowing around her, she suddenly felt her consciousness floating off into sleep, but then she jerked up as if she heard something.  Heard something?  No, that wasn’t right.  It was more like she felt something.  Her mind was never at rest for very long and when she had this feeling, she knew not to ignore it.  Something was not right here, this darkened landscape that suddenly seemed familiar to her, somehow.  She stood up and looked out over the lake.  The light from the moon up above faded away from so much cloud cover spanning the length of the sky.  There wasn’t a soul around and yet she felt as if someone was there, whispering in the back of her mind.  Sometimes when she got this sort of feeling it would frighten her, but this particular time, she was extremely calm and she wanted to do everything she could to contact this spirit.

            Sitting back down on the beach and assuming a meditation type stance, she closed her eyes, and slowed her breathing until she could focus on this feeling.  It only took a few moments until she finally heard something, but when she heard it she nearly broke the connection out of shock.  The voice said, “Youko, Kaori, or whoever you are now, it’s all up to you.”

            What was this voice?  It obviously connected these two people and possibly even referred to them as a single being- even so, how did this spirit know her?  And who was this Youko person?  She felt as though the name was familiar, too, and yet she didn’t know from where…  If the spirit was using this name as an alternative to her own, then why use it at all?  “Whoever you are now.”  This line was the key- but still she didn’t want to think too heavily upon it before she found out more about the spirit.

            With her eyes still closed, Kaori asked the question in her mind, “Who are you?  Who is out there…?”

            “It’s been along time, Youko.  I’m sorry we have to meet like this.  Youko- no, Kaori…  I am the remnant of a man’s spirit that died in this place.  The area that you see before you is not real; you are not truly sitting on a dark beach with a beautifully black lake in front of you.  In fact, you are merely dreaming, and that is how I am able to come into your dreams to speak with you.”

            “What…?  I don’t understand.  Where am I?  And, how do I know you?”

            “You, Kaori, don’t really know me, not in this time anyway, but your other self, Youko, did.  I don’t expect you to understand anything now, but just understand that I forgive you…and I have forgiven you centuries ago, at even the moment of my death.  You probably don’t remember anything of this, but at some point, I’m sure you will remember.  When the time comes for you to remember, I want you to know how I feel and that the gates of heaven will one day grant your entry…  But you have to do one thing for me.”

            “If you know me so well, then you must know how clueless I am…  But, apparently, that doesn’t matter right now…  So, go ahead and tell me what all you have to say, before I wake up to reality and forget it all anyway.”

            “Don’t worry.  You won’t forget anything that we have discussed here.  In any case, you must remember this one thing, if not anything at all.  The ring that you found in your sister’s room when she too passed away must be given back to the one who gave it in the first place.  It’s somewhat of a riddle, I know, but I cannot tell you exactly what must be done.  Once you find the tear, you must give it back.  Otherwise, you will confuse fate and time might go a bit haywire.”

            “Alright, fine.  I can do that.”

            “I’m sorry I can’t say more than this… but fate too has it’s bonds on me…  If by some chance we are able to meet again in the future… be sure to… jog my memory…”

            The voice had been trailing off slightly in its last exchange, almost as if it was gradually losing its own power to communicate.  Once the spirit was gone, Kaori opened her eyes and found that she was no longer standing on a beach.  She now found herself imprisoned in a dark, damp cell far beneath the earth’s surface.  The sudden change of scenery was so different and yet the same, she didn’t know exactly how to feel.  Both were sinisterly dark and drab, but the beach was so much more comfortable, somehow peaceful compared to this place.  The memory of the voice floating through her head within the dream she had just awoken from...  What was it something or someone she should have known?  What was this thing he was forgiving her for?  It seemed so important that she couldn’t imagine what it could have been. 

            Just as she was again getting lost within her own thoughts, a guard with a large key ring jingling at his waist walked by.  She quickly stood up and ran to the bars, stretching her hands out of the cell.  “Wait, don’t leave!  You have to help me!”

            The guard, looking a bit tired or unconcerned, slowly stepped back to Kaori’s black cell and growled at her.  “What do you want lady?  I’m going on break.”

            “Yes, I’m very sorry to interrupt you during your only time to relax and all, but you must tell me why I am here!  Did Gulabel put me in here?  He said he was only restricting me from the building...”

            The guard simply looked on her with oblivious, uncaring eyes.  “Lady, I don’t know who this Gulabel dude of sorts is nor do I particularly care.  So, once you wave down another guard who might feel more apt to help you out with the information that you’re looking for, I suggest you just sit your little tush down and relax because I have the feeling that you’re going to be down here for a very long, long time.  See ya.”  With that, the man continued on his way down the bleak hall.

            The words "a very long, long time" seemed to echo endlessly down the ill-lit dungeon hall way just as heartlessly as they did through her mind.  What had she done to deserve this?  It wasn't a crime to cause accidents.  You didn't see everyday people in who were involved car accidents being hauled off to prison, at least not the innocent ones.  She knew what she had done to the PCM lab was a horrible thing, but it was an accident!  At least she wasn’t going to let Hisoka die under the rubble of the Dredge like Gulabel was so willing to do.  Why?  Perhaps he was so intent on secretively getting something from him that he did not want to admit his own failure… but failure in what?

            The walls of the cell were beginning to squeeze the air out of her lungs.  If she was kept in this tiny, damp place for much longer, she feared she would go insane.  Just as she was about to wrap on the bars again, a tickle that ran the entire length of her body, from head all the way down her neck, back, and down to her heels.  The sensation chilled her bones and caused the hair on the back of her neck to stand on end.  She slowly turned around and cautiously touched a hand to her neck as if she expected to feel a spider or some other dungeon dwelling creature to scramble across her hand.  If there was no insect or bug crawling on her, then what was the feeling?  Attempting to see through the shallow light of the cell, she studied her surroundings more with her hands than with sight.  From what she could tell, there was only a rotted out cot that stood somewhat on a slant against the fall wall, parallel to the main hall that led throughout the dungeon.  Guided by her hands outstretched, she felt the cot.  It was made of wood, soggy wood that seemed to have been down here in the dungeons for a very long time; such a long time that splinters and partial pieces of it shattered off at the slight touch.  Resting lightly on the decaying cot was a thin sheet of a rather light color, possibly white.  She leaned closer with the sheet in hand and sniffed it.  Although it had was most likely in this dungeon for as long as the cot has, the sheet did not smell badly, not nearly as horrid as she thought it to.  In fact, it was almost a sweet smell, something that one looks forward to as he enters his home after a long day away.  The fabric felt so soft against her wet and dirty hands from the environment of the dungeon.  She suddenly felt at ease, as if she could very easily fall asleep, wrapped up in this small little blanket, and rest for years to come. 

Then just as she gave into sleep, she heard a voice, the same voice from the dream, “Soon it will be time, time to rest, time to awaken; just in time for the end.”